Love Dream

I woke up this morning from a dream. In the dream, the person I loved, loved me back. He confessed he loved me for years. I was so touched by my dream that I woke up thinking it was real. I got dressed thinking I was in love. I drove to work feeling in love. I carried on the rest of my day being in love. The sad reality of this is that I am not in love. I am not in love with anyone and no one loves me. I have come to realize that as I age, falling love has become more and more difficult. As much as I do not like to admit it but I am a hopeless romantic. I believe in love at first sight. I believe in simple love. I believe that love cannot be replaced with convenience, pure companionship, or money. If you do not love someone, do not be with them. If you love someone, love them unconditionally.

Balance

I left March 2^nd. It was 6 years of my twenties that I left. A commitment to an organization where I met great people and learned everything I know about business. That commitment was broken. The root cause: a negative force that entered my balanced life. This negative force caused me to have nightmares at night and caused great stress and unhappiness. I was struggling, struggling between logic and emotions. This person taught me so much that benefited my career and yet this person was so destructive to my balance and happiness. I could not get myself to hate this person because I felt I owed this person for the guidance and help I received. But on the other side, this person was so awful! So to save my sanity, I left the negative environment I was in. I miss the constant cash flow but I cannot say I regret it. I am at a better place.

I recently entered a new adventure in my career. The new adventure looks a little bit like this: milk, a smelly work environment, nice people, and that one thorn in the batch. I’m working on that thorn. I want to eventually overcome that thorn.